seems like after my training i start giving myself lots of stress..i dono why.. mayb de situation cause me to make a fast decision..
i reali dono wat i should do after training
oversea? working? o reali do de thing i like?
i reali dun dare 2 tell any1 wat i reali like..coz even sumtimes im flashing back n foward on wat i reali likes..
mayb de opinion around me make me doesnt dare 2 take out a step on wat i reali like n straight head 2 de future
n tis reali make me reali reali sad
mayb im busy making ppl around me hapi but i reali left out 1 person tat i reali din make her hapi is myself..
im busy doin wat ppl asked 2..
im not a gud decision maker?
mayb from small im living in a well comfort family whr everythin is planned for me, n now it reali makes me cant grow?o mayb im 2 childish tat even im tat old i cant make decision for myself 2?
im over stress~~!!
everything~!!!
if i choose:
1)oversea to study-i reali wil worry de situation at home.whether they r ok anot,de financial,de worst part came..am i a worm book?can i reali study?
2) work- ya..i choose it myself tat i wanna study tis F thing!hotel line?travel line?klg reali dun hav gud travel agency..if i work at kl,mum will worry whether im working o playin over thr...n de salary they r payin is F low..
3) de thing i reali like? hair styling?-y i reali liked it? my opinion is tat i reali can make ppl look beautiful..4 shows,wedding....childish rite? but i reali wanna do sumthing i like..when ppl look at ur work they praise n de most important is mumi n dadi reali proud of me...tat is de greatest thing if i can make it for them

tat day i took de brave 2 tell mum tat i liked to try to fit in myself in de hair styling world..mum asked me 2 think properly..she seems like doesnt agree.. she want me 2 work in hotel line...a gud image for de family?o me?
all de stress,reali make me more emo.. i duno who i can talk 2..i dono wat shud i do.. i dono whether i shud cry?AH~~!!!

Nevermind what haters say
Ignore them 'til they fade away
Amazing they ungreat for after
all the games I gave away
Safe to say I paved the way
for you can't get paid today
You still be wasting days away
had I never saved the day
Consider them my protégé how
much I think they should pay
Instead of being gracious
they violated and made you wait


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