all these years bday n xmas were the most important n excited day for me
tis year it aint gonna be the same
mum asked wat's my plan for tis year? u shud hav tonnes of ppl want 2 celebrate with u uh? party til dawn again?
i replied no. i just wan to stay in hse
mum never ask why. perhaps she noes y

birthday tis year is the worst
ya,i thought i'll spend my 1st ever bday with him but..
i never blame him for letting me go just like tat, seriously i dun noe why

i cant control wats happening,i cant turn back time,i cant force him
just blame tat i fell in love with a guy after 4 years living in " dun trust love" life
i carry tis 4 years burden,telling.. reminding myself to never fall in love,coz those pain u'll remember forever
those pain cant carry off by tears
those pain will carry u to fear

AHHH~~wat to do?
i did fall in love after 4years
n tis time i fell even worst even deeper
perhaps i found wat i wan in him
loving some1 is not bout his outlook, not bout how wealthy he is...
is bout...
(gosh..y am crying again?)
is bout...
.....
is bout all the laughter n happiness he brings 2 u

send a msg to GOD tell HIM to delete him for my mind n heart can?
i really cant stand it anymore
why u hav 2 be so selfish?
tell me why
why u hav 2 love me then just let me off?
i really am hating myself
i have to act FINE WHILE IM NOT
I NEED YOU,DO U HEAR ME?
I NEED YOU TO SUPPORT ME
I CANT WALK ALL THIS SHIT BY MYSELF

CHENG CHENG I NEED YOU
JUST TELL ME EVERYHTING WILL BE FINE,COZ U'RE HERE WITH ME


y...............................
tell me why am i hurting myself again n again
loving someone who dont even cares
wat did i did?
wat shud i do?

Nevermind what haters say
Ignore them 'til they fade away
Amazing they ungreat for after
all the games I gave away
Safe to say I paved the way
for you can't get paid today
You still be wasting days away
had I never saved the day
Consider them my protégé how
much I think they should pay
Instead of being gracious
they violated and made you wait


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