it had been ages...
quit my blog for sumtime..
reason?
few years back blog was my only thing which i can express myself..
now?
perhaps im bak?

"Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, savour you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I may, for it will not always be so. One day I shall dig my nails into the earth, or bury my face in the pillow, or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky, and want, more than all the world, your return."

return?
i dun think u'll return in future
i just dun noe y everytime when i start typing my blog i'll end up in tears..
jus d dam old feeling..


i reali miss summer n tracy
but both in 2 diff places
1 kat canada,1 kat nz
4 years bak i gt both of them,slapping me asking me 2 stay awake
now?
living all alone at nite talking 2 myself,fearing tis fearing tat reali make me nuts!
i reali dun understand

living life rite now make me feel useless..
waking up,bath,brunch,tv, check on d clock whether is 2.30 anot (jus wan 2 take excuse 2 look 4 him) bak 2 bed, check on hp, tv,check on hp again( i noe he's nt goin 2 text u) im d only idiot fella who putting hope 2 myself... dinner,fb n bak 2 bed
did i mention bout all d med n shots?
its 11.39 pm is way way pass my rest time but im stil awake

tis few days im in a new fear!
FEAR of thr's no tomolo
reali..
heart beat is way nt normal,breathing is way heavy n body condition is way not fine
n worst part i hav 2 act normal in front of mum n dad
i noe i shud let them noe..
but i jus dun1 2 make them worry
dying is easy,but jus giv me a warning 1st can?
jus giv me 24 hour,let me finish all my will n u can take me v YOU
im serious...
wat i reali wan for now?
his laugh again
silly rite?

Nevermind what haters say
Ignore them 'til they fade away
Amazing they ungreat for after
all the games I gave away
Safe to say I paved the way
for you can't get paid today
You still be wasting days away
had I never saved the day
Consider them my protégé how
much I think they should pay
Instead of being gracious
they violated and made you wait


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